just incase you don’t follow my other more updated blog at www.becomingatycoon.com , i thought i would just pop up a quick post and let everyone know that i’m still alive and kicking.

business is going okay, the wedding is still on and i haven’t killed over from a heart attack… yet.

so i think in the grand scheme of it all, things are going pretty well. i’ve pretty much given up on the fact that i will be out of debt before i’m married… i mean, $186,000 paid off in one year plus expenses is a little lofty even for me. but who’s to say i can’t make a dent in it, right?

well, i won’t forsake you any more. i’ll post on both.

i’ve started a new blog. it’s a better blog. better suited to my current blogging needs.

yes, this blog will still be here as i am in the process of trying to pay off my debt eventhough i haven’t started or tried yet. call me what you want, but just know it’s better for us all.

i hope that you will all read this blog and my other blog: Becoming a Tycoon

maybe it’s a little over-the-top but when i’m king of the world it won’t seem so funny then. you’ll say to yourself, “i remember reading his blog when he was younger… i always knew he’d become something great.”

anyway, i just wanted to let you all know that and i will blog on here almost as frequently as i already do.

sorry everyone. it’s been a few days since i wrote anything. (last week maybe)

i think i need to start writing something a little more, ummm, useful? and seeing how i don’t really write about knocking down my debt and more about how i’m doing with business i’m starting to think i might should shift my focus from debt to business.

not really sure if i’ll get a new domain or just set up a subdomain here like:
notgoingcrazyinbusiness.debtchronicles.com or something like that. think i’ll work on that some tonight.

anyway, business has been kinda crazy here lately which is great. 

well, i gotta get back to work so we’ll chat later.

i slept the night before last but didn’t sleep last night. i guess it’s just caused by all of the stress and worry. not really about business but i think it has more to do with the wedding… and not even the wedding itself but more of what it’s going to mean once i am married.

after i say, “i do” i no longer become responsible for just me. after that, i become responsible for me and my wife. it’s hard for me to think that i’ll be able to do support us when i often times have trouble supporting myself. i’ve set the goals for myself but they shoot out over a five year period (realistically).

infact, there is nothing wrong with my goals, but it’s foolish of me to think that i can pull $200,000 out of my ass in a year and two weeks. i hope i’m wrong and i’m going to do all i can to get that $200,000, but i won’t disallusion myself.

so maybe i do need to go back over my goals. maybe i should look at what i want and put it on a reasonable time frame. and maybe i should give myself little goals to accomplish once a month or daily goals. i just need anything that will keep giving me the faith because i’ve lost it.

i know this blog is supposed to be about my journey out of debt… and believe me. it is. my journey out of the land of debt bondage just isn’t about me paying extra on this or skimping on that. it’s about the emotional toil and struggle i’m going through in this process. and while i have yet to pay down on any of my debt at all, i at least know that i’m building the foundation for my eventual battle.

or that’s how i feel.

so tonight while i’m eating super-unhealthy cheese breadsticks and drinking a mountain dew, i’ll look over my goals and try and plan out a better vision of what i want. because right now it’s like me saying i want to be a millionaire but thinking that just because i ask for it, it’ll happen. life doesn’t work that way… or at least not for me.

you’ve heard it right. i haven’t slept… at all this week. i’m not talking about restless sleep. oh, hell no. i’m talking about staring at the ceiling from 11pm-6am. i hate this, too. i just want to sleep!

 with that being said. i’ve been working my ass off these past few days and that’s great. i had a problem with what i should charge but luckily christine over at www.selfmadechick.com straightened me out. it always seems like when i’m having an issue she writes a blog about it… it seems like it’s just for me. THANKS!

but that’s all i got.

i just wanna sleep. really… i do. please… i want sleep.

well, in 13 months i’ll be married and out of debt! yeehaw!

well my friends, life is good. it’s finally cold out (and i do mean cold… in the high 30’s) and i got some really sweet checks today. actually, i’ve managed to make more today that i usually make in a week. the good news about this is that it lets me know that no matter what, i should be able to keep growing. when a week’s pay turns into a day’s pay, then that week will grow, then it’ll turn into a day, etc.

i’m glad that i’m able to do this, though, because it gives me hope. i think that’s what we all need the most of when we’re taking on our challenges. victories always make us feel stronger.

with that being said, i’ve started to layout a visual victory marker for me. it’s something i got the idea from another blog and it makes a helluva lot of sense. but, i’m still working on it so that i can feel like i’m making a dent rather than making tiny progress. once it’s done, though, i think it’s something that we can all use.

take it easy, guys. it’s a rough world out there.

okay, it’s not fully developed yet but just you wait…

it’s the ultimate vizulation of debt pay off…. at least for me. oh man!

that’s right. ole matt is looking hot in his fancy new suit. i’ll post a picture tomorrow because you’re going to be like, “damn… he looks good in his new suit.”

sorry, i like clothes better than most women.

i feel great still. tomorrow i should get my check for $2,000 for the dishwasher from my coffee shop. i’ll pay a few bills and still have a ton of money left over. it’s pretty neat to live without fear from bills or how you’re going to pay this or how you’re going to pay that.

the great thing about this “freedom” is that it makes me want to work even more so i don’t have to deal with that old feeling ever again. i sleep at night knowing that it will all be okay and i can eat… and buy new suits! also with this i’m able to focus on getting great business rather than just anyone with a pulse.

i’m reading a book right now and the first chapter talks exactly about that. he calls it his velvet rope policy. basically what this means is that you should just take on anybody who has a pulse or anyone who has an open checkbook. instead you should focus on clients who make you want to work harder and smarter and also clients who you truely enjoy working for and look foward to their call and visit.

i have to say that so far i’m lucky to have these kinds of clients. my clients are friends to me. so much so that i can hop over to their office just to chat and just to shoot the breeze. to me, that’s the best kind of relationship you can have with your client. these kinds of people allow you to be yourself which in turn allows you to work your absolute best.

i plan on focusing even more on getting these kinds of clients this week and building relationships that will sustain my business for a long time.

well, i guess that’s about right seeing how we’ve just started december and considering there are 33 days to january 3rd. wow. that means in 33 days i will be exactly one year from my great and ultimate goal.

i just read a post over at “Self Made Chick” talking about How to Achieve Ridiculous Goals.

well, well, well… just so happens i have said goal. and i’m sure that at times we all feel like our goals are a little crazy…

i don’t think it matters if you have $100 in debt or $100,000. if you feel overwhelmed and under-prepared anything can seem ridiculous. i want to slash $180,000 in debt in one year.  i’m not sure how you feel, but that’s a lot to do in one year. and while at times i feel like my goal will never get met, i have to remind myself that if i think it won’t happen then it never will.

every morning i wake up, thank God for letting me see another day then i tell myself that i will get what i want. same when i go to sleep. then i get on here and tell all of you. this makes me publicly accountable.

with that being said, it’s been a great week thus far. actually, i should say yesterday was a great day and because it was such a great day my entire month is taken care of. all in one day. this means that i will be able to focus on my business and not just the money.

well, that’s all i have to say for now. i guess we’ll chat later.